It is astounding how as I lay hold of a Biblical truth, how quickly it is tested, and an opportunity for application appears.
Just a few hours ago I was reflecting on how necessary and challenging it is to apply trust in the midst of fear. “When I am afraid, I will trust in You.”
During my advisory class I was handed a note from a student that is often involved in volatile verbal exchanges. This note made direct accusations and challenged my character. Previous experience with similar character assassination has placed me on the front line under heavy fire. Regardless of my innocence, I had to endure the horrifying heartache of false testimony before my character was defended and my innocence restored.
“Oh God, please not again!”
Then it struck me. “Though I am afraid, I trust in You.” Only hours ago that was my heart’s cry – “When I am afraid, I will trust You today.” Okay, it is boiling down to each moment I am afraid, I say again, “I trust in You.” It is not about me. It is not about my character. It is simply a matter of will I trust Him when I am afraid? Several times in the last few hours, as fear fought for a foothold, I have stopped, taken a deep breath, and again uttered the words, “I trust You.”
I do not know what will happen next. I’d be lying if I said there was not a deep dread for what lies ahead. Alas, even now, my heart’s cry is, “I trust You.” He is my Defender, my Counselor, my Fortress, my Friend. He is enough. He is more than enough to rectify wrongs and heal hurts. Lord I believe, help my unbelief.
© Shannon Elizabeth Moreno and Revelations in Writing, May 2011 – present