“The Lord said to him (Moses), ‘Who gave man his mouth? Who makes him deaf or mute? Who gives him sight or makes him blind? Is it not I, the Lord? Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say.” – Exodus 4:11-12
God, who intricately and purposefully created man, will surely give us words when He calls us to speak on His behalf.
It is interesting to me that this is my third encounter with this specific passage of scripture within the last 24 hours. Yesterday, a fellow blogger quoted this particular passage in Exodus in response to my reflection on Luke 21:14-15, about God providing words and wisdom as we need it. In the evening, as I was reading a book, these very same verses from Exodus 4 were quoted in response to the main character’s fear about sharing her faith. After having read these very words twice yesterday, I again encountered the very same verses as I did my devotional reading this morning. The words seemed to leap off of the page and into my heart. Okay God, I get it…
I have always had a paralyzing fear of public speaking. The very thought of it has always caused an involuntary physical response. Rapid heart rate, perspiration, and actual trembling, are all a part of my personal place of panic at the very thought of speaking before the masses.
In high school, I dropped my A.P. English class when it became a requirement to read our own writing. In college, I changed my major from education (which I had been called to from a very early age) to graphic design when I discovered that education majors were required to take a speech class.
Ironically, after graduation and my entry onto the mission field, I found myself in a position where I was being asked to share my testimony before enormous student bodies in India. Somehow, by the grace of God, I survived it. Each time I was asked to share, God gave me the words and the strength to stand. (I think that having to speak through an interpreter helped some too)
After a few years of such adventures around Asia, the message became quite clear – back to grad school I went to pursue my teaching credentials…
Now, despite fifteen years of teaching, I still tremble at the thought of public speaking.
Thankfully, God is not finished with me yet! As I have been walking through this new season of vulnerability and transparency in writing what God is placing on my heart, He keeps presenting me with passages that point to His faithfulness as He calls me to further find my voice. What exactly this all means, I do not know. Honestly, I am certain that it is best that I not yet know. What I do know is that He is faithful to fulfill all that He says He will do, and that is all that I need to know…
Dear Heavenly Father, thank You for showing me multiple times that You who made me, will always equip me. Please remove fear and self-doubt, and teach me to trust You, as You lovingly value each voice. God grant courage and grace as You send us to speak into the lives of Your beloved. Amen.
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