King David, arguably one of the most powerful and influential kings in early history, was not fearless, rather he knew where to go when fear entered in. His words recorded in Psalm 56, are resonating in my head and heart this morning. “When I am afraid, I will trust in You.” (vs 3)
No ferocity, no fanfare or hype, simply words that separate the conquerors from the conquered. There is much comfort in this for me.
I don’t think of myself as fearful, yet I really am. Not fearful of things that are seen, rather by that which is not. Bugs and snakes, bad guys and barriers – not so scary. Intense emotion, heartache, despair, disappointment, failure – these are my daunting demons. Fear in what is not visible; perhaps because it is more difficult to fight that which one cannot see. Recently, these invisible fears have begun to take shape. Each gaining a faint outline in form – familiarity finding a foothold.
What I thought to be failure, I am now discovering is actually an opportunity to exercise faith. Fear is not the enemy, it is what I do with said fear that determines the impact of the unseen. If I go to God when I find fear hanging on my heart, it is a time to trust rather than cower in the corner, and allow God to be God.
Trust – the very word can instill fear. It is ironic that the weapon that combats fear, is another fearful firearm. Though hesitantly given, it seemingly escapes with ease. One unkind word or broken promise, and trust is tarnished. Tainted and taken, diminished trust can destroy dreams and delay destination. Broken trust becomes a barrier.
Thankfully, there is One who is always worthy of our trust. He will never leave us or forsake us. He alone is trustworthy. If I place my trust in Him, fear cannot find a foothold. The more I place my trust in Him, the faster I find fear flees. I want to walk with my head up and my eyes wide open. He alone fans the flame of faith when I choose to trust in Him.
Today, when I feel afraid, I will choose to trust. I will not look to yesterday’s failure or tomorrow’s tension, I will simply say, “I trust You today.”
© Shannon Elizabeth Moreno and Revelations in Writing, May 2011 – present