“You came near when I called You, and You said, ‘Do not fear.” – Lamentations 3:5
When we call on the Lord, He is faithful to answer, and wants us to overcome our fears through faith in Him.
I despise public speaking. Really, the very thought of it sends terror straight to my heart, and the press and palpitations begin…
In high school, the minute we were asked to begin reading our writing aloud, particularly our poetry in my AP English class, I marched myself over to the office and dropped AP English and switched to “regular” English, where I could remain quietly anonymous.
I entered university with the intention of becoming an educator, but briskly changed my major when I discovered that a speech class was required. Four years were spent hiding in the art and English departments in classes that did not include presentations.
Fast forward a few years after graduation, and I found myself standing before a sea of students, staring straight at me as I spoke through a translator, throughout several schools across Asia. I was terrified every time I had to talk to share some of my testimony, yet each time, Jesus made His presence known, and presented me with the words to speak, and sustained me so that I did not spew all over the stage.
Upon my return home, I registered for a Master’s in Teaching/Teaching Certification program. By God’s grace, I got through it and have now been gainfully employed in education for more than fifteen years.
Yesterday, I was asked if I might be willing to read some of my writing in front of a group of women. My immediate response was, “I NEVER read my own writing aloud!” As I was driving home, He began to gently whisper to my heart, “Do not fear, for I will be with you.”
The message I had just heard that morning, included much wisdom, with a few things in particular that watered what has long been planted firmly in my foundation:
– God sees what is in us, far more clearly than we do
– We must respond to the request, to see the results
– We will miss the miracles if we aren’t willing to move
I promptly proceeded home and changed my reply from “I never” to “I am willing, despite the desperation of my fear.”
It will be a bit of an adventure to see just how His Spirit will move in all of this…
Dear Heavenly Father, thank You that in You, we have nothing to fear. Thank You that as we ask, You equip and empower each of us to do far more than we could ever even imagine. Thank You that You see completely, what we only see in part. Forgive me for speaking out of fear, and help my immediate response to more readily be, “Yes Lord, I am willing.” Teach us to trust You more, even in the terrifying. May we not miss the miraculous, as we are willing to move. Use us Lord as Your hands, heart, and voice, to touch lives and lead the lost straight to Your loving arms. Amen.
© Shannon Elizabeth Moreno and Revelations in Writing, May 2011 – present